You ever get in a disagreement with someone and you just can’t figure out where you lost them. Like your argument is solid. It makes perfect logical sense. There is no question to it being the truth. Yet, somehow it is not being understood or practiced. Clearly there must be multiple layers of indifference exasperated by darkness.
That is because a heart and mind are not connected. We may know something in our mind but it hasn’t reached the heart. Or vice versa. A heart or mind was formed some other way. I was reflecting on this the other day as I listened to a person prayerfully bring the negative connotations they had about themselves to prayer. It was their anti-highlight wheel. I was like, oh yeah, I know what those are. I worked through them. Been there, done that. Therapy was good to me in that area. I got this, as being illogical things that I believe about myself compared to the things that God believes about me. As the prayer continued I realized, oh I still have some of those things about myself in my heart. I perfectly understand why my logic is off, I just can’t seem to have those same correct thoughts reach my heart. Maybe I do not believe myself to be evil or nasty but I do believe things in my heart that are not true.
As a matter of fact those things I believe about myself, in my heart, are the same things that are a motive for any and all falls that I have. If I would have just believed correctly maybe I could prevent so many falls. So the easy answer and hard action to take is just believe in your heart the things that God believes about you. Unsubscribe to the world’s beliefs that are not in line with the true presence of love. Also root yourself in the word of God. Let him speak truth into your heart.
I am not going to tell you what is exactly wrong with my heart. We are to guard our heart and I am still trying to figure out what that means, exactly. Maybe someone has already figured out what “guarding your heart” means and wrote a book on it. Yet, for the time being let’s work on doing things the hard way. Ever feel like that? There are two ways to handle this thing. I am going to try for the hardest way, apparently.
There is no one in their right mind who authentically, tries to build trust by betraying trust. Is a person simply a goal or a soul?
I may very well know where something was spoken into me. I may know why it should not be something that is believed. I guess, I just have to spend more time on believing the things God believes about me. So what does God believe about us all?
In the name of The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit, I conceive to ask in your name a right order to who I am. May your glorious grace gently purify my soul to the truth, the way and the light that is needed to become the saint you will me to be. God grant me thy will to believe that I am created in your image, that I have a right to become your child, that I can bring praise to you, that I may be united to the Lord and become one in spirit with HIM, that I am a part of the Body of Christ, that I may declare wonderful deeds of HIM, that my body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, and that my mind can be set on things above. God, Grant me thy will to believe that bestowed upon me is your love.*
(*John 14:6, Genesis 1:27, John 1:12, Romans 15:7, 1 Corinthians 6:17, Corinthians 12:27, 1 Peter 2:9, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, Colossians 3:1-3…)